you set a fire to me.

so i held things together last night which surprises me.
eneka quit. darby was a no show.

so thanks to darn, we held it down, and held it down well!
had lots and lots of people there so thats a plus :D

then elzz had a photo shoot for me but i ended up taking photos of myself that i thought came out cutes.

now i'm listening to musics and downloaded even more.

<3
I'D RATHER DANCE I'D RATHER DANCE THEN TALK WITH YOUUUUUU

sorry. i had listened to kings of convenience in a long time.

mighty morphin power eekaaaaa.

eww a non windlight picture?? HOW UGLY!!

but yeah i was djing.

i feel bad. i couldn't get back on sl last night to do my 2nd set.

I'M SORRY I'M SO HORRIBLE!

i had a good time last night of course until the mean builders from the sandbox across the way decided to come and be mean and blast their musics on voice.

DDD:


im sensitive hahahaha.

same face

i remember my feet dangling under my body and my heart pounding, never defiant but sometimes skipping a beat or two. elevated in a quiet bliss i would close my eyes and imagine what could happen the next day. a year from now. a decade more. maybe i knew the further i went the closer i'd be.
and at night when the stars were harnessed in the night sky, burning in an irrevocable glory, i'd wish. i'd pray. and i'd dream.
maybe that is where it started. where this drilling in my heart came from of something grand and covered in tiny jewels of love.
to hold each day in an inescapable and desirable afterlife is a dream come true.
and even if it is not yet tangible, each day is closer then the day before.



and if we were to love more then we ever loved before it would be whole, ruthless, and perfect.


my thoughts are driving me towards sleep. my lack of sleep is slowly gnawing at my soul. i can't sleep. never. i toss and turn upset that i cannot be held. that i cannot feel the touch of love.
but i'm still drawn to you more then ever.


i am probably making no sense but i do not care. i'm just typing, seeing where the words will take me.


when i woke up today i did not want to wake up. but then again, wouldn't anyone want to stay asleep, dreaming of something sweet and syrup filled?

i'm exhausted.

***



it was a long drive. longer then had ever been expected. her feet were burning beneath her, lightly pressing against the gas petal. then the break. it was smooth though. and her trip was nearly done. but where was she going? would she break free, her organs escaping their encasement, her love releasing into the stars? or would she end up right where she had left off, trapped forever in an unstoppable cyclone filled with fury and demand?
she speeds she stops and thinks. she could be anywhere by now. and this is what tickled her. what kept her smiling.

in the end we end up where we are meant.

and in the end i'll end up with you.
<3

hide with me under the covers because you are my love

(♥)

something in the deli aisle.

today is hot. like really hot. like i want to go lay in a freezer for a couple of hours before i can do anything hot. and because it is hot this means i do not feel like getting on sl just yet.

however i did have time to get on and take a few photos seen above.

<3

birthday massacres.

i know i know this picture is not done being edited but whatever.

ss and i died this morning from a fashion explosion. apparently, the hard hat that both he and i appear to be wearing in this photo, was too fashionably charged that not even our stylish selves could handle it. lucky for you though, we were both able to brings ourselves back to life and shop at some more stylish places.


the end.


and new rave glasses from royal blue ftw <3
((LOVE YOU MARNI!))

late night tea parties.

i could not sleep for the life of me last night. so i decided to get back on sl in the middle of the night.
well my 1:30 am to be exact.

and i got to dance with kone and shutterbug a bit at the win for the end of darn's punk set. ((and i must mention that he ended his punk set with PORTISHEAD! hahah what a mix)).

after that i decided kone and i neeeeeded to go rp. but i started to get tired.

after seeing some kids drive away in a school bus, SS got on so i went to take a peek at his new furniture. and he's right, it really does kick ass!!

after that we went to nylon to shops and discussed all the people we once knew and how its so funny we didn't ever like, talk back in the day. ((i met him a good year ago or so, once or twice, and never said a word to him)).

and then i went to sleeps.

and now i'm awake.

go me.

stella was a diver.

stella i love you stella i love you stella i LOVE you

i can't stop listening to interpol all of a sudden.

in between my junior and senior years of high school so i guess 2003, i purchased the Turn off the Bright Lights CD. by far one of my favorites.

so. honestly. i've just been so blah. i don't want to get on sl. i don't wanna meet people. i am sl depressed if that is even possible. i get anxious being in one place for hours on end. but i don't want to go out.

it is so strange. i'm not sure what is going on...

***
and with a sudden shot to the head she was down, her body sprawled out on pavement like the bloody carcass of a deer on the side of the road in november.


she enjoys it too much though.

synopse.

i've been getting off of sl earlier and earlier nowadays. i kindda feel like an old lady-- bedtime starting once the sun goes down!

or maybe i've just needed a lot of sleep as of late.

so last night was Lili's dj set. i fell asleep during the 2nd half because i'm an old lady, but the first half was of course AWESOME. not only did she play great musics, as always, but she also added in some trivia. now for those of you that were not aware, i have a love hate relationship with trivia. i hate it and i love it. i love winning i hate loosing and i hate how i'm so horrible at trivia. but for the first time EVERRRRRR on lili's trivia night did i win ONE of the answers! w00t!

there have been nights that i've been so frustrated with other people that win over and over and over and over that i will leave so upset with tears in my eyes. true story folks.

i'm overly competitive. i really do hate loosing. i like being on top with everyone looking at me... wait that sounded bad haha.


i am not sure why i masked this blog as my life in second life when i'm pretty sure i'm going to relate it all to the real life after all.

the life of tahneeta-- which is in another blog that i never update that is connected to this. that blog is filled with random bullshit and me getting fucked up over a year ago. so i don't recomend going to that blog just because its a complete and total mind fuck.


soooooo now to escape to my lovely virtual life.

lovelove & many besos.

timezone.

so maybe it is with a bit of luck that we find ourselves in positions like this where your heart pumps quick and heavy and your body just flows, going with the constant push of life.
this is where i found it, not searching or walking on a beach of sand and beauties.

it was an empty piece of land. no trees in sight. no contour of earth.

just a square. a wide open space.

and in a quick instant my blood was churning in my body, my lips were smiling behind the mask.

i cannot explain any of it, nor do i believe that the words to describe ever will come to exist. but it is felt, all around and through my skin, echoing through time.


and this is what the face of happiness feels like.

eek! a BAT!!

well, thanks to the inspiration of a few friends of mine i've decided to take a giant step and make an online blog for Miss Eeka Batz, and all of her cuteness.. errrh... my cuteness :D

blogs are an interesting subject being that i've had hundreds of them in my life but never one for EEKA.

in case you were wondering, eeka is my avatar made for second life located here:

damn that sounds dumb.

oh well.

but you know, who DOESN'T want to read the ramblings of a girl from texas who is lost on a virtual game for a good 45-85% of her day.

so here it is.


in my ears: YELLE. (go listen to her, seriously.)