you know you like it its calling your name.

i am a renegadeee
ive never been afraiddddd.

screw work.

lets all just stay at home all day in bed with warm covers and sweet dreams.

its like running
trees whipping past
muscles gripping tight
and a heart skipping beats

at the end of the day
we'll all figure it out



sleeping alone is only for rainy days.

that summer rain its in your face again

i take pictures.

sooo i only paid 140 of my 250 phone bill. anddd even though they said that it wouldn't be turned off IT WASSSS.

so i'm phoneless. and that really SUCKS. especially since i don't have a car so i have to rely on others now for a ride and i get weird if my ride doesn't show up or i don't know if i'm going to be picked up.

its weird to think how much of my life revolves around my damn cell phone! wow. lulz.

last night i was EXHAUSTED. i ended up getting that "i'm so tired i should basically be drunk" feeling and ended up saying things i wouldn't normally say!

it happens from time to time. haha





does anyone remember that song
"I WANNA SINK TO THE BOTTOM WITH YOUUUUUUU?"

i think it was fountains of wayne?

yay for random thoughts. <3

imma get online and stream musics.

cold cold water

so i've always called mirah my favorite musician of all time but i could never get into "cold cold water."

turns out its my new favorite.

i think i couldn't get into it because it reminded me of that damn damien rice song that i didn't like. o.o

anyway, here are the lyrics because i think they are beautiful.

"I saddled up my pony right
and rode into the ghostly night
it was wide, wide open, wide, wide open

I left the only home I knew
I stayed alive and I found you
now I take you where the water's deep
and make the air you breathe so sweet

but is it not enough to be complete? please?
let me give you everything you need, please?

we found a way, we found a street
directions sweat under the sheets
and I let you have it, let you have it

but it can be a lonely place
desire comes, desire fades
there's a bright one caught your fancy eye
it's okay so long as you stay mine

and I'm so number one that it's a shame, a shame
that you let other numbers in the game

now I suffer for your hungry eye
oh why must it see more than mine?
it's a light you're after, 'cause light moves faster

but when I ride again into the night
my torch will shoot flames strong and bright
and my absence will remind you of
how tough it is to be in love

and it's not what I think it's what you say, hey
and it works great for you to have your way, hey

but if the west can be a desperate place
you search all day for just a taste
of the cold, cold water, cold, cold water

and if you think I've gone too long
listen the sky will sing this song
as it burns up all the memories
that flow like water out of me"

beginning of the day

and i still just want to crawl in bed.

please remind me

not to stay up late and drink on days that i have to open.
UGH.

so i figured now would be a good time to write something on here being that 1. i am coherent and 2. i can't get on sl because i'm downloading too much shit.

so YAY! good morning! we have a new great president!

this past week has been VERY strange. like weird shit happening all over the place. just shows more reasons to stick close to the people you love though.

my best friend kami and i have made our december 2012 plans! haha. we're going to have this huge party out in the middle of no where so if we DO die we die TOGETHER. if we don't then we had one hell of a party and we made the best of the previous 4 years just in case we did die.

i had so much more to put in here and i can't remember it now for the life of me. i was distracted by my REPAIRED TV! no more tv switching channels by itself and turning off and on by itself! HI5.

i have these very strange bite marks on my neck and they are really sore.
i always get weird bites D:

maybe i don't REALLY have a lot to discuss in here because i'm just sitting here stairing at this screen.

go me.

<3

i come from space.

sorry the pics suck, rance.
I'LL TAKE BETTER ONES LATER.

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i've lost my picture taking ability, but i promise i'll have better pics of rance and me soon haha.

and if any of you get the chance, go hear rance alva dj, yo.

he's pretty awesome kthxbai.


its sunday. its my day off.
sl was boring so i logged off.
so sitting here listening to musics will suffice.

i haven't listened to q and not u in a while. brings back memories.

prolly gonna finish this book i'm reading then head on over for sunday at kamis. <3

adiossssssssss.

halloweeeeen.

tonight karma found my dream house and i'm sad that i cant have it.
i want tall ceilings and old sturdy walls with wood floors and big windows.

D:

i love old vs. new. the feeling of something with history mixed with something new.
its just beautiful to me o.o

my bed is nice and warm. comforting and sturdy. soft and humble.

i love my bed but yet i hate sleep?

ahh but i don't hate sleep. i just hate falling asleep alone.

sleep can be so lonely.

who wouldn't want someone to warm the covers for them.

but my feet are like little ice cubes. you'd jump if you felt them against your warm legs!

i think my future is bright. i can feel happiness lurking in my future, my life always kind and dreamy.

i need sleep!


goodnight xD

p.s.

half asleep.
i has this to say.

DEAR ____.
I HAVE A CRUSH ON YOU.
CAN I MAKE YOU VEGAN MUFFINS IN A DEHYDRATOR AND GIVE YOU LOTS OF HUGS?
KTHX <3




wow
am i gonna regret that in the morning?

does your money love you does your money fuck you

sorry for the excess in rl pics and the lack of my normal sl pics. i just haven't taken any recently.

BUT KARMA GRAVES IS BACK!

soooo that means more pics coming sooon <3

i'm so fucking exhausted. too much work! too little sleep!!

i really need to fix my sleeping patterns.

butttt imma wake up early and hang out with karmaz in the morningggg woowoo <3

ilygoodnight.

a long ledge of grass works its way through the edge of the water and this is where my short knobby feet pitter-patter across dipped green and brown slush earth. dawn is always such an awakening. the sun rising always surprising even with its steadfast timer ticking and tocking in our bodies, its music and life dedicating itself to our cold nimble shoulders giving us the chance to really breathe again.

"and this is where my forrest would be," my brain actively accepting your coming. your fingers drapped in mine as we walk through the path the trees have made for us.




i'm dreaming of marbles again, twilering their way around our bodies.


asleep.

10 hours of fucking drinking.
80 bux wasted on alcohol.

i think i'm spent.

i should know better then to think that once i start i can stop.

soooo i need to take a drinking break.


punch me in the fucking face next time i drink in the next week.

please and thank you.

can't you get us out in the mean time.

i'd like to take this time to say that i really do love thieves like us. i need their cd to be released so i can buy it and dance in my car to it.

i had a stupid dumb rl work meeting this morning which means my sleep schedule was WAY off last night. i got on sl at like 10. took a nap at 11:30. woke up at midnight. tried to stay up but i didn't last so i went to bed. woke up at 3. stayed up for a while. went to be at 4. woke up at 6 was on sl until 7 went to work at 7:30. yeahhhh.

my body is all messed up from my fucked up sleeping patterns.

so BASICALLY i missed my entire cassie reunion.
/me fails.

i need linden. i wish i was rich irl and could afford linden.

screw you bills. i just wanna play.

being relaxed and letting it breathe.

i started listening to rogue wave again.
its good, yo.
going out of town tomorrow.

said i was going to bed but i think i'm going to reinstall the sims 2 on my pc.

we'll see.

maybe i'll read and write instead :D

in order to install the disks on my pc i need the code for them which is saved in a notecard on sl so i prolly won't add the sims in after all. not tonight at least.

el perro del mar is also amazing. i haven't listened to them in a LONG time.

maybe i am actually SLEEPY for change. maybe i should dl a movie and watch that shit rather then just sit here typing every thought in my head xD

when karma comes back we're gonna work on fixing up our gallery/music hangout.

it could be sweeeeeet <3


GLORY GLORY GLORY GLORY TO THE WORLDDDDDDDD.
listen to el perro del mar. seriously. <3



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goodnight my sweet dreams
of cotton candy kisses and
midnight dancing on treetops
in wind
i will fill your belly with my
pronounced words and
feverish flesh
for tomorrow is going to be
just perfect
or the next or
the day after that




it still hurts i guess.

velella velella.

we'll stop running when we run out of time
but with time comes time and time and more
chances and choices and
things that tear you apart

and i won't tear you apart.